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mtxref_ficAuthor's Note: Written for < lj user="fic_promptly">'s Author's choice, author's choice, unforgivable. Pre-canon, featuring Tsuzuki's POV
The images, the memories, the pain of that terrible night that had brought him to this place would not go away, and so he did not sleep. To sleep was to dream and to dream meant that he would live that night all over again.
His life did not deserve to go on, and eating never filled the hunger that gnawed inside him, and so he would not eat, no matter how much the attendants pressed him.
But he could not bear the gaze of the senior physician, who sometimes stood over him, leaning over the foot of the be, or approached him to caress his face or to go further. And so life was a continued torment that only death would end. And so at any chance, he would grasp at any means to end the pain and end his life. He did not care that by doing this, he risked damnation: what he had done, the crimes he had committed, the deaths on his hands and the destruction he had left behind him, had cost him his place in the afterlife.
The images, the memories, the pain of that terrible night that had brought him to this place would not go away, and so he did not sleep. To sleep was to dream and to dream meant that he would live that night all over again.
His life did not deserve to go on, and eating never filled the hunger that gnawed inside him, and so he would not eat, no matter how much the attendants pressed him.
But he could not bear the gaze of the senior physician, who sometimes stood over him, leaning over the foot of the be, or approached him to caress his face or to go further. And so life was a continued torment that only death would end. And so at any chance, he would grasp at any means to end the pain and end his life. He did not care that by doing this, he risked damnation: what he had done, the crimes he had committed, the deaths on his hands and the destruction he had left behind him, had cost him his place in the afterlife.
